My Induction Phase is now complete. I have lab work left, but both the injections and chemo pills associated with it are finished. This week, I go to Emory for two days of tests. It’s weird that the last 4 months, I’ve taken stuff to knock down the myeloma, and now they’ll run me through tests to make sure I am strong enough to go through the stem cell transplant.
The game changes now. The Velcade taken up until now, has been well tolerated. No issues with nausea or hair loss. My worst side effects seem to have been hiccups, numb hands, feet and lips and hot most of the time. I’ve only been mildly tired up until the last weekend and then it seems to have rushed in this weekend with a vengeance.
The chemo at Emory is designed to wipe the cancer which remains out. After my stem cells are collected, it’ll be time for a “reset”. This new beginning will be very different than the Induction Phase. It is a necessary step nonetheless, but more difficult.
So, with a reset, what changes will I make? More or less kind? More or less forgiving? More living on the edge? More playing it safe? Maybe I won’t change anything?
All this effort I’ve put my body through to live… It’d be a waste to not live. It’d be a waste to hunker down and just stay safe. But, if I take risks, I might cut short the life I’ve fought to save… Living appeals to me. I don’t want to just survive, but I also don’t plan to live life on the edge of dying either.
The end of April, my new beginning will come from some other beginning’s end.